I Cannot Hide It; You're Not That Easy to Forget

I still feel awful. In my head, anyway. I keep asking for clarity, you know, from the big G.O.D. but it hasn't gotten any easier and like I told Kyle, I just don't feel like I've made any headway on my situation.

I went to the doctor again today and spent an hour and a half in there before talking to the specialist for ten minutes. You can imagine I was pissed, since I had to cancel lunch with Lauren which I've been looking forward to for what seems like a month. Part of me isn't sure I should be upset since I haven't paid a dime of what I've incurred for breaking my foot (thanks to worker's comp) but another part of me is angry that they feel like there's nothing wrong making patients wait forever and ever. It's like look: if you aren't going to see me at ten, make my appointment for 11:30 for God's sake! Like I have nothing better to do than sit around in your office all day. Luckily I didn't have to work or anything today, or I would have been even more upset.

So then, I end up being able to make lunch plans with Ryan :) and definitely..... all of a sudden my mom starts freaking out because she can't pay her bills online (her computer is not working for some reason) so I have to let her use my laptop, then when she does, she finds out that they can't process the payment until Monday (A day late) and she freaking loses her mind. How is it my problem that she doesn't know when their online payment cut off days are? So lunch had to be cut pretty short, close to 45 minutes when I typically try to stretch my lunches out so I have more quality time with whomever I am having lunch. But it was fun to see him anyway, it's been like, what, three weeks or something?

Last night was VBS... Actually the entire week has (except Tuesday night which was dinner with Tim) and it's been a blast, tonight is the last night, and I was hoping to see The Dark Knight afterwards but pretty much everyone I've asked has some excuse why not to go (not poor excuses, but nonetheless, it is what it is). So it might end up being tomorrow for that movie. Ryan is seeing it for his second time this afternoon haha, so he already has two up on me. I'm more than a little jealous.

Also, although I complain a lot about the summer, one reason for joy is Travis came back from his mission!!! Ahh I missed him so much! We got to have lunch yesterday and it was so great to see him again. He is even hotter than when he left before lol... don't get me wrong he's always been cute, but you know what happens when guys get the chance to "grow up." And the best part is that he isn't even awkward!! We talked over Panda yesterday just like old times, and he is still as funny as ever. I'm so glad he's back :)

Other than that... I just really want this summer to be over with. It's coming very close to being finished, and I am really grateful for that. Although I've had some fun with good friends, it's just time for me to get back and do my thing. I want to get senior year over with. And before you know it, you guys, I'll be graduating! May 2009 here I come :D