So it's already November. My grad school application is due in January, I have to sign up for the GRE pretty much tomorrow (Even though I'm really not ready to take it)... I don't feel like I have a choice at this point. I did too much procrastinating, now I have to either sign up for a sooner date at a testing center that is farther away than the Coor building on campus OR I can sign up later and be 10 minutes from it. I'm going to go with my gut and say that farther away at an earlier date is better. I've been through almost all of my GRE study book, and not any of the seperate math book I bought for it, none of the vocab... I know the vocab is going to kill me anyway, but at least I have some roots for words in my head and I can give it my best shot. Vocab is everyone's weakness I think on the GRE but that's just what I've heard.
What else... Rocktober was pretty bomb. My birthday was SO much fun. Birthday weekend as usual, you know how we do, we keep it classy haha... lots of really nice things done for me and given to me that weekend, I am really grateful for all the people I got to share that time with.
I was sort of dating this awesome guy I started getting to know at our CA conference in Colorado last month (That I never wrote about!!? Bah), but that's over. Long story I guess... all I can say is, if he would just stop this foolishness things could be really good, I think. Like really good. That's it.
Basically I am strugglin' haha. Story of my life. Academics, social, work, ultimate fris, being a CA... my worlds are basically colliding. And the semester is almost over? How did that happen? And I sure do miss my best friends a whole lot. You know who you are...
I am really in love with Taylor Swift/Carrie Underwood's music right now. These ladies really know how to tell it.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Suffice to Say
Suck-tember is almost over.
Bring on Rock-tober? The following things are awesome:
- Me, Lauren and Courtney's birthdays
- Saw 5 comes out (on my birthday, best b-day ever?)
- TRIP TO COLORADO for the RAppin' Conference (free vacation)
- State Fair begins again (yay)
- Cooler weather (bring it)
- Dodgeball tournament
- Halloween program put on by the community development committee (involving free food of some sort I'm sure)
Probably other stuff but whatever. I'm in such a bad mood, and I'm so sad :(
I keep trying to lean on God through these messes but every mess hits harder and stronger. I am trying to look at the positive and know that these trial times won't last forever.. and that when it's good, it's really good. I just have to keep being sure of that. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle... and actually typing that made me feel better because it's really hard to believe sometimes. But He doesn't do this just to get us down or see how hard we fall everytime we do fall. It's to see if we pick ourselves back up, and to test us. We always come out on top, and we come out stronger. I don't know what I'm worried about. It just feels like a long way to the top at this point. I feel like when it's really bad... I still keep trying to find the good in it. My mom has a hard time doing that, and I feel like I am the negative nelly. But I guess I just have to holdfast to hope. We're going to get right. I know we are.
Bring on Rock-tober? The following things are awesome:
- Me, Lauren and Courtney's birthdays
- Saw 5 comes out (on my birthday, best b-day ever?)
- TRIP TO COLORADO for the RAppin' Conference (free vacation)
- State Fair begins again (yay)
- Cooler weather (bring it)
- Dodgeball tournament
- Halloween program put on by the community development committee (involving free food of some sort I'm sure)
Probably other stuff but whatever. I'm in such a bad mood, and I'm so sad :(
I keep trying to lean on God through these messes but every mess hits harder and stronger. I am trying to look at the positive and know that these trial times won't last forever.. and that when it's good, it's really good. I just have to keep being sure of that. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle... and actually typing that made me feel better because it's really hard to believe sometimes. But He doesn't do this just to get us down or see how hard we fall everytime we do fall. It's to see if we pick ourselves back up, and to test us. We always come out on top, and we come out stronger. I don't know what I'm worried about. It just feels like a long way to the top at this point. I feel like when it's really bad... I still keep trying to find the good in it. My mom has a hard time doing that, and I feel like I am the negative nelly. But I guess I just have to holdfast to hope. We're going to get right. I know we are.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Take Heart, cause You Know that You Have Mine
Well. I'm sitting here in the ASU Student Health Center, wasting my life away. I am starving. I am waiting for them to look at my knee and see if it's got problems. I am hoping nothing serious is wrong with it, and I hate coming in for something that ONLY hurts when I exercise, but the solution is NOT quitting ultimate or ending my bi-weekly treadmill runs. Not going to happen. But can someone please explain to me why it is that as soon as I am finally enjoying an active lifestyle, my health starts giving me issues? I guess this is what I get for living on campus. Living where I learn and work has come to be a blessing and a curse. But I love every minute of it.
On that note, let's talk about how much I love my job as a CA. My residents, although some of them know just the way to get on my last nerve, are for the most part really good, fun kids. Part of what makes this job so rewarding is knowing that we are their advantage: I'm a senior. I've been around ASU's block a number of times, I've been swept under the rug by financial aid, campus health and cashiering services more times than I can count, and I have felt the disappointment that goes with failing a test I was so confident that I passed more times than I care to remember. I've been sick, I've been in love, I've been lonely, I've been stressed and worried and angry and hungry and satiated. It's been a good mix of emotion, a long road and winding road, but the journey is almost over.
Can you believe it? This time in May I'll be a graduate of Arizona State University. With my bachelor's in psychology and a minor in religious studies. What will I be able to take with me? And who? What memories will I keep and which ones will I push out and try to forget? I'm counting on this to be a year seasoned with cherishable memories, much like spring semester. I'm looking forward to finally getting into a routine and establishing a study pattern that i can count to pull me through another grade report. I'm considering daily all the work I have left to do for me to apply to grad school. This isn't looking promising, all of this grad school business. But I'm doing my best at what I love to do and what I've been promising myself I would do since I was in elementary school. It's my dream, it is my parents' aspiration for me, it is the place in which God wants me to be so I can prepare myself to help others in the capacity he designed for me to do so, and I am excited.
I'm about to step into the real world, whatever that means. Adults have been telling us this since we were in junior high, that one day the real world is going to blindside us, and our weekends aren't always going to be free for partying, going out shopping, to dinner and movies with our friends. We are going to have "big people" jobs, we will eventually get married, settle down, have a family, take care of children, own a home, pay "real" bills (not like giving our parents money for our car insurance). It's all a little scary and surreal, but it's happening, it's coming, and there's nothing we can do about it but prepare and hope for the best.
On another note, I asked my friend a question tonight. It's a God question that I will leave you all with to ponder. Jesus calls us to be generous with everything he has blessed us with; our time, our finances, our gifts, our luxuries... so where are we allowed to draw the line? Must we always be at service to everyone? A large part of this is knowing when to say when, i.e. when to say no which I've found easy to do. Especially when it comes to those who have brought some kind of pain to our lives, whether it is unintentional or in ignorance. What do we do with that?
On that note, let's talk about how much I love my job as a CA. My residents, although some of them know just the way to get on my last nerve, are for the most part really good, fun kids. Part of what makes this job so rewarding is knowing that we are their advantage: I'm a senior. I've been around ASU's block a number of times, I've been swept under the rug by financial aid, campus health and cashiering services more times than I can count, and I have felt the disappointment that goes with failing a test I was so confident that I passed more times than I care to remember. I've been sick, I've been in love, I've been lonely, I've been stressed and worried and angry and hungry and satiated. It's been a good mix of emotion, a long road and winding road, but the journey is almost over.
Can you believe it? This time in May I'll be a graduate of Arizona State University. With my bachelor's in psychology and a minor in religious studies. What will I be able to take with me? And who? What memories will I keep and which ones will I push out and try to forget? I'm counting on this to be a year seasoned with cherishable memories, much like spring semester. I'm looking forward to finally getting into a routine and establishing a study pattern that i can count to pull me through another grade report. I'm considering daily all the work I have left to do for me to apply to grad school. This isn't looking promising, all of this grad school business. But I'm doing my best at what I love to do and what I've been promising myself I would do since I was in elementary school. It's my dream, it is my parents' aspiration for me, it is the place in which God wants me to be so I can prepare myself to help others in the capacity he designed for me to do so, and I am excited.
I'm about to step into the real world, whatever that means. Adults have been telling us this since we were in junior high, that one day the real world is going to blindside us, and our weekends aren't always going to be free for partying, going out shopping, to dinner and movies with our friends. We are going to have "big people" jobs, we will eventually get married, settle down, have a family, take care of children, own a home, pay "real" bills (not like giving our parents money for our car insurance). It's all a little scary and surreal, but it's happening, it's coming, and there's nothing we can do about it but prepare and hope for the best.
On another note, I asked my friend a question tonight. It's a God question that I will leave you all with to ponder. Jesus calls us to be generous with everything he has blessed us with; our time, our finances, our gifts, our luxuries... so where are we allowed to draw the line? Must we always be at service to everyone? A large part of this is knowing when to say when, i.e. when to say no which I've found easy to do. Especially when it comes to those who have brought some kind of pain to our lives, whether it is unintentional or in ignorance. What do we do with that?
Monday, August 11, 2008
Our Song is a Slammin' Screen Door...
Wow... I haven't even updated at all since I Moved in. This past week has been psychotic. Really. Training has kept me so busy!! You know training for my CA (RA/Resident Assistant) position, second and third semesters of that here at ASU coming up. I became really overwhelmed tonight, like everything kind of all hit me at once at some point so if I seem like I'm in a bad mood tomorrow, that is definitely why.
Just some things that have been on my mind that I need to say somewhere before I explode:
Almost time for bed. We have an early/long day tomorrow. Yikes...
Just some things that have been on my mind that I need to say somewhere before I explode:
- Someone I know said to one of my other friends the other day that I am "obsessed with Facebook" in a really derogatory way, like my life is owned by it, and it really, really hurt my feelings. Like it was so awkward, and she made it sound like her life was too important for her to even be on Facebook. I didn't really know what to say so I kind of ignored it, but as I am letting it stew it is making me sadder and sadder. So I apologize if lately I make it seem like Facebook is all I care about, it's not that. It's what Facebook represents: NETWORKING. And I am all about that. Facebook makes it increasingly easy to do it. So when I immediately tag all of you in pictures I've taken over the course of training, it's because I want to remember these times since they have been some of the funnest and most memorable of my college experience. I apologize if you feel like you are "above" Facebook and what it stands for. A lot of people appreciate what I do on FB and if you do not, then keep it to yourself I guess?
- I am listening to a couple songs tonight that are making me think about that boy again, which is too bad because I looked at his Facebook and he is talking to another girl. Gah I hate that. I'm sure it's nothing but it's just the idea.
- Speaking of boys, the care package I'm putting together is almost finished!!! I can't wait to send it :)
- I like to be energetic and get everyone stoked about activities we do, but there is a point where I cap off and just can't keep up with people who act like they are competing to be more stoked than me. I can't handle that. There are a couple people I've been getting to know who are very much like this. They are amazing individuals, incredible leaders, but way over the top sometimes. I wouldn't say our personalities clash, but I will definitely say that there is a slight decrease in my energy when I feel like I have to down play because there is already too much over zealousness. Did that last sentence even make any sense haha...
- I kind of have a crush on this boy but in a nutshell, he is non-responsive :( I got some stellar advice from Tim last night, I have been pondering on it, and have found that if I would just listen to people who I know are wiser than myself and are correct about the words they say, I would be worlds better off. So thanks to Tim for that.
- I am so tired, and I feel like I have no time to do extra things... like go to the store for tampons because apparently I'm out? Or mail packages, or paint signs as good as I want to... I bought some books online last night but I still have two more to buy at the actual bookstore. And I am freaking tired right now, if I didn't already say that hah...
Almost time for bed. We have an early/long day tomorrow. Yikes...
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The Game is Over
I have been thinking about 'NSYNC lyrics all day haha so I thought I would start this blog by titling it one of my favorite songs from their No Strings Attached CD. Good times!
While I perused Lauren's Australia blog, I realized a few things:
T0 rectify the situation, I will start tonight by a summary of the last couple of days, and then really wow you with a narrative about mine and Mike's experience at Idol auditions on Friday.
So... tonight. Thoroughly enjoyable day over all. Possibly one of the best day/night combinations in quite a while. I'll start with today. For the first time in like a week I was able to catch up on some much needed sleep. I slept a couple hours Friday night after all the Idol craziness was over, then went to bed earlier than normal, got up around 12 today (Saturday) and got ready to go shopping with my mom. What you need to understand is that I never and I stress never shop with her. A few different reasons... she complains the whole time, doesn't like to linger in stores too long, constantly taking bathroom breaks even if it means re-walking the entirety of whatever marketplace we happen to be occupying... anyway I had my eye on some jeans at the Eagle on Thursday and the girl was nice enough to hold them for me until today so we went to TMP and I bought those... some pedal pushers, and some sweet polka dot pj's (which I didn't try on and, surprise surpise, did not fit! Since when is a small too big btw?). Then we went to the bathroom, then Tilly's where I bought an amazingly cute black purse for about $20 (definitely have never had a solid black purse). Then we went to Victoria's Secret!!! Yay...
I found some undies, and almost bought that amazing Biofit bra (which, to date, is probably the most comfortable bra I have ever put on) but it is $42 or something outrageous and I just didn't see myself putting it on my credit card. I don't necessarily need it (although I am obsessed with it at this point) and it will always be there. Maybe another time I can get it on sale. Anyway, I ended up getting another free PINK bag, which you get with ANY PINK purchase (even like the $2 undies I bought lol). I plan on using it tomorrow for whatever oddities I find at IKEA tomorrow with Bre.
After shopping my mom and I went to Lucille's for dinner. Amazing as usual. Beautiful men working there per the usual. Unfortunately the object of my affection was too far away for me to read his name tag but I assure you whole-heartedly of his attractiveness lol... you would be in love too. I got a phone call from Bre and she said that someone in Europe used her card somehow to buy gas fraudulently! WTF! You can't trust anybody! Well luckily the bank knew that she was out of town then so they caught it before anything bad happened to her credit, praise God for that! Money is such a tricky thing.
Around 6:15 Bre and I headed out for Third Format and had a great night there... Jeremy preached about homelessness and how we need to be a lot more willing to help God's unfortunate than we currently are. I was obviously made extremely uncomfortable by the message because of the stereotype I give homeless people, that most of them will not use the money they ask you for and sometimes receive, wisely. I would be far more likely to buy them a meal, and have had a consistent desire to do so, but am never in a situation where that is possible. It is always at the side of the freeway where I can't just ask them to jump into my truck. I wouldn't allow any stranger to do that, homeless or not. I prefer to live.
Afterwards, I was able to talk to the awesome intern boys of Camp Trek who I will thoroughly miss when they all go back to Indiana. Should have definitely gone with them to the movie tonight, it would have been nice to spend some extra time with them. But I had a great time with Bre; we stayed after 3F to watch The Princess Bride in the amphitheater, had some free pizza/chips/water (gotta love Nestle bottled water for sure). Not a bad movie if I do say so myself. The guy from Robin Hood: Men in Tights plays Wesley, and he is a funny actor, I like him. We sat in the grass for an hour and a half feeling like we were getting bitten and crawled all over by bugs, then we got up and headed back to my house. She left early to get a shower in before going to sleep, and we are going to IKEA like I said, tomorrow afternoon. I'm stoked; maybe I can find some sweet stuff for my room at PV East?
Well heck, I am really freaking tired, I have much more to say but I guess it will have to wait. I'll let you guys know if IKEA is doing anything great yet for the back-to-school season. They usually do it up so we'll see what happens. I want a laptop desk still! :)
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While I perused Lauren's Australia blog, I realized a few things:
- My life's interest level pales in comparison to that of Lauren's and most other people's blogs lol
- I don't blog nearly as often as I should about details of my life that I may want to reflect on later, such as certain events taking place, or hanging out with certain people and what we were doing on that occasion.
- I thoroughly enjoy blogging!
T0 rectify the situation, I will start tonight by a summary of the last couple of days, and then really wow you with a narrative about mine and Mike's experience at Idol auditions on Friday.
So... tonight. Thoroughly enjoyable day over all. Possibly one of the best day/night combinations in quite a while. I'll start with today. For the first time in like a week I was able to catch up on some much needed sleep. I slept a couple hours Friday night after all the Idol craziness was over, then went to bed earlier than normal, got up around 12 today (Saturday) and got ready to go shopping with my mom. What you need to understand is that I never and I stress never shop with her. A few different reasons... she complains the whole time, doesn't like to linger in stores too long, constantly taking bathroom breaks even if it means re-walking the entirety of whatever marketplace we happen to be occupying... anyway I had my eye on some jeans at the Eagle on Thursday and the girl was nice enough to hold them for me until today so we went to TMP and I bought those... some pedal pushers, and some sweet polka dot pj's (which I didn't try on and, surprise surpise, did not fit! Since when is a small too big btw?). Then we went to the bathroom, then Tilly's where I bought an amazingly cute black purse for about $20 (definitely have never had a solid black purse). Then we went to Victoria's Secret!!! Yay...
I found some undies, and almost bought that amazing Biofit bra (which, to date, is probably the most comfortable bra I have ever put on) but it is $42 or something outrageous and I just didn't see myself putting it on my credit card. I don't necessarily need it (although I am obsessed with it at this point) and it will always be there. Maybe another time I can get it on sale. Anyway, I ended up getting another free PINK bag, which you get with ANY PINK purchase (even like the $2 undies I bought lol). I plan on using it tomorrow for whatever oddities I find at IKEA tomorrow with Bre.
After shopping my mom and I went to Lucille's for dinner. Amazing as usual. Beautiful men working there per the usual. Unfortunately the object of my affection was too far away for me to read his name tag but I assure you whole-heartedly of his attractiveness lol... you would be in love too. I got a phone call from Bre and she said that someone in Europe used her card somehow to buy gas fraudulently! WTF! You can't trust anybody! Well luckily the bank knew that she was out of town then so they caught it before anything bad happened to her credit, praise God for that! Money is such a tricky thing.
Around 6:15 Bre and I headed out for Third Format and had a great night there... Jeremy preached about homelessness and how we need to be a lot more willing to help God's unfortunate than we currently are. I was obviously made extremely uncomfortable by the message because of the stereotype I give homeless people, that most of them will not use the money they ask you for and sometimes receive, wisely. I would be far more likely to buy them a meal, and have had a consistent desire to do so, but am never in a situation where that is possible. It is always at the side of the freeway where I can't just ask them to jump into my truck. I wouldn't allow any stranger to do that, homeless or not. I prefer to live.
Afterwards, I was able to talk to the awesome intern boys of Camp Trek who I will thoroughly miss when they all go back to Indiana. Should have definitely gone with them to the movie tonight, it would have been nice to spend some extra time with them. But I had a great time with Bre; we stayed after 3F to watch The Princess Bride in the amphitheater, had some free pizza/chips/water (gotta love Nestle bottled water for sure). Not a bad movie if I do say so myself. The guy from Robin Hood: Men in Tights plays Wesley, and he is a funny actor, I like him. We sat in the grass for an hour and a half feeling like we were getting bitten and crawled all over by bugs, then we got up and headed back to my house. She left early to get a shower in before going to sleep, and we are going to IKEA like I said, tomorrow afternoon. I'm stoked; maybe I can find some sweet stuff for my room at PV East?
Well heck, I am really freaking tired, I have much more to say but I guess it will have to wait. I'll let you guys know if IKEA is doing anything great yet for the back-to-school season. They usually do it up so we'll see what happens. I want a laptop desk still! :)
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