Suffice to Say

Suck-tember is almost over.

Bring on Rock-tober? The following things are awesome:

- Me, Lauren and Courtney's birthdays
- Saw 5 comes out (on my birthday, best b-day ever?)
- TRIP TO COLORADO for the RAppin' Conference (free vacation)
- State Fair begins again (yay)
- Cooler weather (bring it)
- Dodgeball tournament
- Halloween program put on by the community development committee (involving free food of some sort I'm sure)

Probably other stuff but whatever. I'm in such a bad mood, and I'm so sad :(
I keep trying to lean on God through these messes but every mess hits harder and stronger. I am trying to look at the positive and know that these trial times won't last forever.. and that when it's good, it's really good. I just have to keep being sure of that. God doesn't give us anything we can't handle... and actually typing that made me feel better because it's really hard to believe sometimes. But He doesn't do this just to get us down or see how hard we fall everytime we do fall. It's to see if we pick ourselves back up, and to test us. We always come out on top, and we come out stronger. I don't know what I'm worried about. It just feels like a long way to the top at this point. I feel like when it's really bad... I still keep trying to find the good in it. My mom has a hard time doing that, and I feel like I am the negative nelly. But I guess I just have to holdfast to hope. We're going to get right. I know we are.